TTC Diary - Trying for baby #2

After having my 12 week scan and announcing my pregnancy this week I thought it was time to publish this post that has been sitting in my drafts for the past two months. It's all about our TTC journey which again was quite brief, we've been fortunate.

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01/06/16

Up until a few months ago I didn't feel ready for another baby for various reasons and I felt like I wanted to enjoy Noah on his own for a while longer. This all changed when we headed into the new year and Nick and I started discussing the possibility of baby number two. Fast forward a few months and we are ready, excited and nervous but totally ready! Here I will write all about our trying to conceive journey, the up's and the down's and will probably publish once I've announced a pregnancy, whenever that may be. 

04/06/16
As I type this it's a Saturday afternoon, I'm in my fertile window and we are on our first month of trying. I don't think I have ovulated just yet as I haven't felt that sharp sensation that I usually get but I'm thinking it will be either today or tomorrow. That being said I know how TTC works and have been doing the same as we did the last time, without getting into any gory details! We conceived Noah in our first month of trying, I wonder if we will be that lucky this time around?

09/06/16
It's Thursday afternoon and I thought I'd better check in and write how I've been feeling whilst it's still fresh in my head. When I fell pregnant with Noah I felt symptoms literally almost straight away, sore boobs, sensitive mood wise, exhaustion, nausea, vivid dreams. I knew I was pregnant as I couldn't ignore all the signs as there was so many! I'm feeling the exact same this time around, so much so it's like deja vu but what's different this time around is that I'm doubting myself because how can we be fortunate enough to get pregnant twice both in the first month of trying? What would be the chances of that? I'm no longer in my fertile window so all we can do now is wait. I've already started testing in the morning although I know it's way too soon, just like I did last time around. I'm not entirely sure when I ovulated this time so I will be testing all next week and hoping for those two red lines.

14/06/16
I write this on a Tuesday afternoon and for the past couple of days I've been testing with some early tests I bought off the internet. So far I've not even had the slightest of a red line but I'm not fretting yet as I'm only around 10dpo. I still think I'm pregnant as I have so many signs; nausea, exhaustion, insomnia, heightened sense of smell, emotional, mood swings, sore boobs and vivid dreams. I have found myself doubting myself this time around though as I previously mentioned but I can't ignore what my body is telling me. Surely I can't be having all these symptoms and not be pregnant? 

15/06/16
It's Wednesday and I tested this morning and I saw a faint line! I can't believe it and I don't want to get my hopes up until I get a clear blue test to confirm it but I just "feel" pregnant too so fingers crossed!

16/06/16
So yesterday evening I caved and went to the shop the pick up some Clear Blue pregnancy tests. I did this while Nick and Noah were with me but I sent them to the toy isle so I could make my purchase in secret. I'd intended to take the test on Friday as I knew that was the day or my missed period and it's also Nick's 30th birthday but the temptation of having the tests in my bag was too much! Once I got home I took a test and it confirmed that I am indeed pregnant! As soon as I saw it on the Clear Blue test there was noway I could wait another two days to tell him so I ran downstairs and said I had a early birthday present for him! I gave him the test and said "I'm pregnant!" He hugged me and was at a loss for words! He couldn't believe we were fortunate enough to fall pregnant the first month of trying again and also said it was amazing that I just knew again, straight away!
I still can't believe it, it still doesn't feel real. I suppose it won't fully until I have the 12 week scan which I'm already looking forward to so much!

On that note I suppose our TTC has come to an end, already! I'm going to start writing my pregnancy posts but of course won't publish any of these until I have announced! So here we go, pregnancy number two!

A double Anniversary

Today is not just a special day for not one reason but two! Today is the anniversary of two of the most important events in my life.. 

Today is mine and Nick's 6 year anniversary, we have been together for 6 years! On one hand it feels like only yesterday when we were chatting all night over MSN and arranging to meet up. And on the other it feels like I have known him forever and can't remember life without him. 

Nick and I met through mutual friends. We had seen each other out and about vaguely a few times. He was so shy and was even nervous about friend requesting me on myspace. He finally added me and we begun talking and well what do you know, we ended up hitting it off. 

The next thing I type will sound really daft, very dramatic and extremely cheesy but it's the truth. The night we first kissed I felt something, like something clicking into place. I knew that we would be together for the long haul and that it was meant to be. I don't know why and I'm not the most romantic or overly affectionate person but that is how I felt at that moment in time and ever since. I can't even put it into words but I knew we were going to be something special. I was right cause here I am typing this 6 years later with our baby in our arms and about to buy our very first home together. 

Not only is it our anniversary but it is also exactly 1 year ago that I found out I was pregnant! That's right, we got our positive pregnancy test on our anniversary after just 1 month of trying to conceive. It was meant to be. I will never forget the moment I found out and saw that little red line appearing. I had never felt happiness like it, not until Noah was born. 

I am going to spend the whole day appreciating what we have as I am so lucky. Not only do I have Nick in my life but now I have Noah too. 

How Did You Find Out?

One topic I love to talk about is the moment you found out you was pregnant! Where were you? What went through your mind? How did you feel? Who was you with? 101 questions I know but I would love to share my story with you and hopefully you will share yours too!

I did briefly tell you my finding out story here but I will recap!

Nick and I had only been trying to conceive for a month and knew that it can take months to become pregnant. So we had in our minds that it would take a while. But a few days after my fertility window closed I just felt totally different. I was an emotional wreck, cranky and exhausted. Then later on I began seeing changes with my body. I knew I was pregnant, just knew it! But I also knew that your body and mind can play tricks on you when it comes to conceiving so I tried not to get my hopes up too much. I wouldn't stop talking about it to my other half. It was almost like I was trying to convince him I was pregnant! We wasn't able to test yet as it was too early so we had to wait it out. What a long wait that was!

I bought a dozen cheap test strips on ebay and I started testing everyday. Everyday there was no little red line. It was still too early to test but I did it anyway. I kept testing, morning, noon and night. Then one morning I was sleepily testing at the crack of dawn and I saw that little red line! I ran into the living room where there is better light and there it was the faintest of red lines but it was a red line none the less! I burst out crying and was saying to myself I knew it, I knew it! I was dancing around my front room on my own like a loon. My better half was at work so I had to refrain from ringing him all day and that wait was dreadful! I just wanted to scream the news to him!

It just so happened that I got my positive test result on the day of our 5 year anniversary too. How perfect was that? It was almost like it was meant to be.

I took another three tests that day just to make sure and lined them all up on the bed for when Nick got home. I remember when he walked through the door and I was just trying to keep the grin off my face. I was literally on cloud 9. I pulled him into the bedroom, pointed down to the tests and said "Happy Anniversary!!"
His face was priceless! We were then both in our element and just could not stop smiling.

I will remember that day forever!

Please share your stories, I would love to hear them!